Plz be honest

I need to know what other people think. I have been ttc for almost 2 years. Its very hard on me. I feel very empty and cry a lot. I work in a daycare, when i hold a baby, it feels good. I smile, I feel whole. I would give anything to feel my baby in my arms. So my question, I found some lifelike babies dolls online for sale. Would it make me look crazy or would people laugh if I bought one and carried it with me??? Plz no rude comments. Just want to see what others think. Thank u.