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What Can I Say Feeling Empty 3 In The Morning And Am Wide Awake Can't Sleep, I Didn't See This Coming But I Guess People Get Tired Right? All I Can Think About Is The Pain In The Past And I Know It Aimt Right But I Can't Seem To Let It Go, Am Young And I Been Threw Hell And I Thought I Was Finnaly Coming To Peace ..... But I Can't Because My Past Comes Back And Hunts Me ..... Thinking I Could Be Happy But I Don't Even Know .... Being Rapped At Age 15 And Getting my Life Back Together A Year Later And Now It Been4 Years Since It Happened And For My Past To Come Find Me Once Again How I Can I Tell My Husband Only Been Sex Months Since We Been Married He Knows I Been Rapped Just Doesn't Know I Crossed Path With Him..... And My Body Feels Nasty And I Feel As If It Was All Asleep So Many Thoughts Going Threw My Mind I Can't Do This No More.... And After Lossing A Baby And Trying Again For A Year My Husband Tills Me Tonight He Doesn't Want To Try No More I Feel Died.... 💔💔💔💔