will I ever be able to sleep in my bed again? 😕

 So my LO will be one month old on Friday (can't believe it!!!). anyway, he has reflux and cannot lay flat at night. So our hopes of using the Halo bassinet went out the window. I found that the only thing he will sleep in is his rock and play sleeper bc it has an incline. Problem is it isn't level with my bed (our bed is high). I started finding it difficult in the middle of the night to have to get up and get him to breastfeed. Plus he is extremely fussy due to his reflux and I'm usually up from for about 2 or 3 hours in the middle of the night and was starting to become extremely resentful of my snoring husband while I was sitting up having my sore nipples sucked on all night. Therefore I have been sleeping on the couch with our baby in the rock n play. I want to sleep in our room again and I'm worried I am starting to resent my husband when it's not his fault, not much he can do when I have to breast feed. I pump bottles sometimes but I try to save those for when we have company over (my dad loves to feed the baby and its also easier than me having to leave and nurse him in the other room). I guess I had a pretty picture painted in my head of us sleeping together in our room with our baby peacefully sleeping in the bassinet. I feel like it'll never happen. 😭