I just want to be able to move forward

I went to the doctor on 10/26. I was supposed to be 9 weeks exactly. I had started spotting the day before. Doctor said that can be normal this early on. We did an u/s. There was no heat best. Baby was only measuring 5-6 weeks along. Could be that my dates are mixed up, or a miscarriage. This is my first pregnancy.

The bleeding is getting worse. I'm having some cramping. I am miscarrying my baby. I know this is not my fault. I know I'm not alone. It's common, it happens to so many people who go on to have healthy pregnancies. But somehow I feel alone. None of my co-workers know what is happening. I never told anyone about my pregnancy. They treat me like nothing's wrong. That makes me feel normal. I just want to get through this process so I can physically feel normal again. Mentally I'm okay. I've accepted what's happening. Not to say it still doesn't hurt. But I'm okay. I have friends who I can talk to. Most who have had a miscarriage. I can talk to my husband about it. He understands to the best of his ability. He can't understand the physical process though.

I am okay.

Sorry for the long rant. I just had to get it out.