holiday dread

Is anyone else dreading the holidays? We go to my husbands familys and spend thanksgiving with some family friends. This year... every. single. woman under the age of 40 is pregnant.. except for.. guess who? ME. I wouldn't be surprised if the dogs were pregnant too! I'm not even dreading the fact that I'll be around so many pregnant people, it's mostly the feeling that everyone knows I'm not and that we have been trying for so, so long and avoiding talking about their pregnancies because of ..me. So much self pity these days, I can't shake it.