leaving tonight to go home

I have my anatomy scan in two hours and then it's back to Texas. A 16 1/2 hour drive I'm dreading. My boyfriend and I split as he said he's not ready for us having a baby and though I don't understand I'm just hurt. He's not telling me I have to leavwear but at the same part he's played no part in my pregnancy. His whole family thinks that'll change when my son is born and he sees him but I just don't know at this point. Like I almost wanna cancel my move back home and just hope he changes his mind but it'll hurt so badly if I stay here 4 more months and he's still having the same views. I guess I'm just venting I don't know what I'm looking for but I just know I don't want to leave tonight but I probably should.