GYN Appt. Scared and worried.

Michelle • 43 now, have been trying for 3 years. Trying for #2... 11 yrs later. It took 9 years after an abusive relationship to find my husband...now we want a 👶🏼
My husband and I will be married one year Monday 11/7/16!!  Worried bc 11/8 I go to my GYN.  We have been trying but at 39,  I don't know if it is safe or possible.  Not sure if I can handle the good,  the bad or the ugly.  I want OUR 1st baby,  but 11 years after my only son is scary too. Anyone have positive stories of love after 40 with a new born?