Relying on others..

Anyone else having trouble dealing with relying on their SO? My whole life I've been very very independent and paid all my own bills, done everything on my own. Now that I'm on maternity leave I'm relying on him 100% and it's the hardest thing I've had to do. We live together and it's just been hard to not be able to have control over our finances especially when he tends to call out from work a lot. I'm just like I can't be the only one in this boat.