fed up and tired

Ashley
I'm completely symptom obsessing and googling and I'm driving myself insane!!! I conceived in April and lost it in June. I was devastated. All I want is to be a mom, and I was so estatic that I got pregnant. Needless to say my fiancé and I aren't ttc but we aren't not trying either. What he isn't aware of is my obsession and tracking, and I feel like just quitting. Every Minh AF has come I just cry, a lot. I'm due on Monday and have no doubt it will show. Could use some love and support to know I'm not alone! Thanks ladies. Rant over.