Giving up on ttc

Britt

So, this was my last cycle with clomid. My doc wants to refer me out to an RE. But the closest one is about 4.5 hours away. I've been ttc for about 4 years. . . .I have given up my dream. And its destroying me.

I feel defeated, angry, hopeless, helpless, lost...

Prayers, kind words, love is needed right now... Please.