I don't recognize myself

I was looking for a picture of a drawing on my phone gallery, and I came across a picture I took agoof myself not so long ago, for a split second I didn't recognize the girl in the picture. I'm scared now. I don't recognize myself in the mirror sometimes, I dont know if it's that's a good thing or not.

Another thing is, since my boyfriend left for the army all my life, litteraly evrything in my life has changed: school, work, being without him, home. I'm so scared now because I'm starting to forget the features in his face, his voice, his scent. I don't want to forget him.

There's something wrong with me, my memory about everything, big as well as small details are starting to faid, specially important ones. I remember more of my dreams and the books I read than my own life.