Help 😕

Hey all. Not as intense probs as others on here and i need help/guidance all the same. Many i talk to keep saying they have the best intentions when they give advice and i feel they are naive since their own advice is an opinion and generally how they think something should be done, not necessarily in my own best interest. I am torn because i live in an area that is much more set for cars and do not have one and have been fine, and my mom has always been on board, if not pushing for me, to get a car and would help cover me should i need help financially with paying back the loan. This is a blessing and something others do not have access to, which i acknowledge. What frustrates me is that i have other paths i could take which she never shows support in, like moving to another country nd having stable work as an esl teacher in a place where that can be stable work, and she has never supported this/me. I feel resentful of her and all the people who support me because the support is not the kind of support i need and yes, i am too scared to go 'out there' and find a new support system. I did start when i dated this guy in college and then the relationship became abusive emotionally. So that failed and I am scared to try again because of emotional repurcussions. And, these other places abroad i would go-- they are exciting to me and feasible financially, and i worry if i do so i will cause resentment in her for my departure. This is very much a post about putting on big girl pants, and while i lived in this other country before on my own, the thought of it now is sooooo much more nerve-wracking because life responsibilities seem so much more....impending. Ie if i do this then EVERYTHING will change and i cut off possibility for these other paths. Also, I feel controlled emotionally and financially by my parents and immediate family members for these reasons. Please, any help would be great and also thank you for reading. Last, there are much younger women who have achieved financial security and bravery on here who inspire me-- please do not be harsh or judgmental to me as that language will not help you convey to me any support, should that be what you are trying to create for me as a response. Thank you.

😳😔😞😒😥😟.lol those emojis def help convey how i have felt for years about financial repression/feeling financially incompetent in a world of supposed wealth.