Having a hard time

I just realized a couple days ago i would have been 7 months with my baby Joshua. I'm having a really hard time coping with it now. I wasn't really like this when we miscarried but now it's just hitting like a ton of bricks. What was one way you coped with all this because I would really like to have some kids but now Joshua is in the back of my mind reminding me of how heartbroken and scared I am.