My best friend is pregnant...

Kayla
So my best friend and her husband are pregnant... Just a month or two ago she told me that she Didnt want another baby. She wasnt ready for #2 right now. Ive been communicating with her about how much I want another baby and how depressed I was getting. I have PCOS and it took my 4 years to get my son, who is 14 months old now. Im now 3 days late on my period with negative tests...so I guess that means ive lost my periods again due to PCOS. I don't know how I feel right now. My husband keeps asking me what's wrong and I honestly don't know what to tell him. I feel like everything is going in slow motion around me. I laughed, cried, and smiled when she told me. I cant help but feel so happy for her, but at the same time I feel so angry and confused. I don't understand. I had planned to stop trying. I had talked myself in to being okay with not being pregnant and letting it happen when it happens, but honestly deep down, my heart doesn't truly feel that way obviously... Im so confused.
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Al

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My best friend at the time got pregnant got an abortion and then got pregnant again within a month and was finally happy she got pregnant . I remember losing my shit in a Kmart bathroom when she told me I had been trying with my husband for three years. I don't know if your religious but God has a plan for you ... a few years later I finally got pregnant ... it just wasn't my time back then .Keep faith and patience .. baby dust to you

Al

Alisa • Nov 26, 2016
And that's very natural. God knows our deepest desires. You will get your time. Praying for you

Ka

Kayla • Nov 26, 2016
Yea. im very religious. ive been praying for a baby and had finally talked myself in to being ok to just stop trying and let God work his plan. but now after this Im just so confused. I feel like im being dishonest with myself. My mind is saying its ok it will happen when God is ready for it to, but my heart is broken...

An

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Dont let ttc again take over your life. Enjoy your little one and I bet it happens so when you least expect it. Don't resent other people their happiness. I am also ttc when I have kids. I know I am already blessed.

Ka

Kayla • Nov 26, 2016
Youre so right. Im very blessed. Im very happy for her, I don't resent her at all. I love her very much. I just feel so many emotions right now. its hard for me to get a straight thought. But, I don't resent her in any way. Shes an amazing mother and this baby is going to be so blessed to have her and her amazing hubby as parents. I think what I went through trying to get my son im in panic mode thinking it could be another 4 years to get another baby? I don't know... im just confused right now...