I just need a friend

I'm completely alone I'd say I have friends yet they never reach out to me I will reach out to them but the conversation last 10 mins and and I'm depressed I've been to therapy for two years yet they all turn to religion never focus on why I'm so down about myself I try to say three positive things about my self each day but it gets harder and harder I feel like a horrible person and mom because I deal with sadness as my child grows inside of me