maybe I'm not meant to reproduce..

Stella • September 21, 2017 👪💙
Ok, I feel like I'm going insane. After suffering a miscarriage in November 2015, conceiving hasn't been on our side at all! 
We keep having false tests that either turn out to be evap even with pink colour or a heart break of clear negative. 
I'm officially one day late with AF and have absolutely no signs of her coming. I can't stand salt at all and won't eat any foods with it BUT the last two days I've gotten EXTRA salt on things like fries?!?!? I've been feeling my cervix and it's high and soft but also open.. 
I know I should just suck it up and test but I'm so scared to be let down yet another month. My loving SO keeps kissing my stomach and telling me he "knows" I'm pregnant and even started telling others and it breaks my heart letting him down every month. :(