So I've know the dad of my baby for about 5 years , we were together for 3 years. He has a family in Mexico. We are both old enough to know that once sex happens pregnancy can also happen regardless the method. Anyways that is not the case. Once told him i was pregnant, which was when I was 5 months he wanted me to do an abortion. He said he will kill himself if i didn't do it. I felt so bad i didn't want to live knowing someone did suicide becsuse of my decision. Of course I didn't want to he said he'll be with me afterwards.

I had to analyze the situation, which made me think he was just playing with my head in order for me to do it. We went to the place because he even slept that night with me to make sure I didn't make any excuse. We were there , I went inside but took my time and told the lady I didn't want to do the abortion. So when I came out i told him it was done at least the process had begin. Anyways, to make it short I made him believe I had done the abortion. For me to keep going. Now that my baby is almost here am feeling very sad I want to tell his family(mexico) and him.

I need support am been going thru a hard time. Should I tell him? I didn't do the abortion? Or should I just leave it as it is?

I just want to be able to breath, and not feel guilty anymore.

Please no rude comments I know i made a mistake for being with someone taken already. He's the only one i never done that or thought about it. I feel just dirty.