I dnt know how to feel

I don't know how to feel at this point my husband and I have been trying for 3 yrs

Tomorrow I'll be 11 weeks and have no clue about my fetus right now no ultrasound no sonogram no 💓 beat no symptoms just going to the bathroom ...

I know its been about 9 yrs since I had my last child and really cnt remember how things go it seem like things have super changed over 10 yes.

Yesterday I had my 1st appointment and they did nothing but gave me an regular well women check up and checked my uterus and told me I have type 2 diabetes they classified me for high risk so i have to start going to Tampa I'm so depressed I don't know what to do ..

Anyone have any advice

I wld appreciate it