the queen of grumpy.

Like seriously I hate everything. I hate everyone. I hate having to get off the couch. I hate that I'm so grumpy I don't even like interacting with my poor four year old. She's so sweet and such a good kid. But she won't stop talking. About nothing. And I have to keep saying random things so she knows I'm listening to her and I just wanna sit here and be grumpy in silence. I'm such a horrible mom right now. Idk what's wrong with me. I mean I do. Because I'm huge and I want this fucking baby out of me I have no room left so any move he makes he's in my bladder and under my ribs at the same time. 

I get no sleep. I'm just a fucking bitch to be honest. I've tried things to jump start labour. Nothing has even gotten me close to a contraction. I have to wait for my schedueld section untill fucking Jan 3! And I'm 100 percent convinced this is passed when I should be due. But they say it's when I'm 39 weeks. But I one would even know because they refuse to do a growth scan. My doctor told me my due date was the 2nd of Jan 4 months ago and now he says he never said that. 

I HATE EVERYTHING.  I want a effing beer  😩😫