Restless and nest-less. 😔

 It's a low income apartment, so that's how we were able to qualify to begin with. But because my fiancé and I are both working at this moment in time, we are over-qualified. The apartment management told me it doesn't even matter that I'm leaving work permanently on the 30th. What they don't know is that I haven't been to work for the past week because I started having 5 minute apart contractions in the middle of the night last week, went to the ER, and have been staying home from work since. I've been trying to hang on and continue to work but I've wanted to stop working for a month or so now. This pregnancy has been causing my body a lot of stress, and I'm also running after my 3 year old little boy.

I thought that if I kept working it would make it easier for us to get an apartment but now it's backfiring and it is the very reason we aren't getting this apartment.

I'm going to be 35 weeks in a few days and I'm so fucking upset we don't have a place set up for our baby. All her stuff is in boxes shoved into the corner of my dad's living room.

We're living with my freaking dad, whom I don't even get along with. We are a 4 person family crammed into one bedroom. A bedroom that I grew up in as a child.

I can't nest. There's no space. I don't even know if I should pack our stuff into boxes or start setting up. There's no room for anything. I'm unbelievably stressed out and just fucking sad. I've spent all morning bawling.