just need to talk..

So I'm laying in bed watching what to expect when expecting, I used to love this movie. I got to the part where one of the girls miscarried and it hit home for me. I miscarried in September and watching it just broke my heart because I was that person sitting in the emergency room in horrible pain and having the dr come in and tell me I've lost our baby, I was in so much shock I didn't even cry, I remember looking at my mom and sister and husband and they all had tears in their eyes. I was in so much shock though. It took a couple day  to sink in that all the joy and happiness and excitement that I had felt for the 3 weeks of knowing I was pregnant was completely shattered. When I found out I was pregnant my husbands cousin and I were 4 days apart on due dates and 5 of my friends found out they were pregnant as well, some days it's hard because they are all posting on Facebook announcing the gender of their baby and it just keeps reminding me that I would be 5 months along, I would be announcing what we are having etc it just hits home.