kinda sad

The other day I called to schedule an appointment with my doctor. The nurse I talked to told me that they would have me take a fourth pregnancy test and if it came out positive they would send me for an ultrasound so I could see the baby. Then I asked the doctor about it and he told me that he isn't gonna do one till I'm 12 weeks. I understand his reasoning. But please don't tell me that I'm gonna get to see my baby and then tell me that I have to wait.