I can't talk him into giving me head

He wants cherry flavored lube cause he likes cherry. And I said okay but there's no point in getting that if he's not gonna use it on me since I hate the cherry flavor. And he's like well yeah I don't want to eat you out so never mind. And I'm like well why not. And he says he's just 'uncomfortable about it' but for what? I always give him head ALWAYS. I just wanna be able to experience it and it's really not fair. I feel upset about it. Cause I'm already insecure and now there's this. Idk what to say or do and it's not fair. I feel disgusting. Any lube suggestions that will please us both?