Trust issues

Me and my loverrr the love of my life been on and off for 3 years and i feel like i have no more time to waste i just want to get it right. No one else i ever been with to even try ro move on with i cant because i feel like they dont do this like him, talk like him, spoil me like him etcc. I know most of the times i can be bitchy but i just wanna get it right and not waste any more time. I just dont trust him at all any More once upon a time i did idk what to do anymoreeeee.

Just needed to venttt.