To breastfeed or Not to breastfeed...

well having my 4th baby boy in like 3 weeks or less.

(csection)

the last baby was the first one to successfully breastfeed and it went great until...

I got a yeast infection on my boobs AND my incision! The medication my Dr. gave me apparently gave me a terrible allergic reaction. I itched and swore there were "tiny bugs you cant see biting and crawling on me" for weeks! I am now terrified to breastfeed... (wouldn't wish that on my worst enemy!)

I try to tell myself it will help me prevent post partum depression, and help my uterus shrink faster..

I am so scared to have a bad experience again.

so many pros and cons.. I really didn't know much about it but it lasted the longest with him u til the infection.

I need to decide fast whether or not ill breastfeed again but i just can't make up my mind.

What do you guys think? Should I try again or just play it safe?

having a yeast infection on a fresh csection incision is terrible, let alone the reaction to the meds for it. I just dont know :( but it sounds selfish of me.