blah. men. sex. relationships. pregnancies. baby daddies. life. lol

My current relationship has me thinking hard. I met this guy three months ago. Literally changed my life. It's been great ever since. He gets me. I tell him sooo much about me and he makes me feel so comfortable I literally feel like we've known eachother for forever. I want to marry this guy, seriously. Never thought I'd know this soon but I'm done searching lol. He's the one. Fast forward to today. I got this app to track my period's from going off bc so that I wouldn't get pregnant. However, idk who else is tracking but this is sooo hard. It's like when you're ovulating you're the horniest. How then do you stop yourself from going for it? Anyway... my period was supposed to come yesterday. I'm nervous af. Not asking if I could be pregnant, we know there's always a possibility but I'm nervous because I'm the weirdest way, I want to be. But then again I don't. I don't need another situation with another man. I have a child, she's four. Her father and I were together 7 years and never married neither did our relationship feel remotely close to this. This is more of a "get this off my chest" thing because I haven't tested or told anyone yet. Good morning btw lol