May I Vent?

Ever since I was raped.... I feel numb to everything around me. I hate it, but I can't feel anything.  😔 Sometimes I don't see the point of me being here. I'm in church right now and the only thing going in my mind is how distant I have became. It's like I'm a brand new person, I don't even know myself anymore. 😢  Eveey day I wake up I have to mentally remind myself who I am.  I hate who I've became.