I am an awful partner.

We have been ttc for 1.5 years. I've been tracking bbt, CM, and opks. I finally found some ewcm after all this time. I really wanted to BD but my partner didn't want to. I feel so angry. I don't want to feel like this. He said he wants a baby made of love, not of just bding. I told him there are only a couple days I COULD get pregnant and left it at that. Well I would never make him do anything he didn't want to so its past my fertile time now. I really didn't want a winter baby, I live where winter is very bitter. So now I feel like my dreams are crushed. I'm so upset. I've spent a fortune on opks and waking up every day for bbt, tracking my body. I'm so frustrated with everything.