TRYING TO GET PREGNANT

guys, is anyone else feeling like I'm feeling? I had 2 miscarriages this year TTC my first child. The OB think it was bad luck but they did blood work & gave me folbee tablets just in case my blood had anything to do with the mc. My boyfriend and I have been trying and I feel like im going to go insane waiting to see 2 lines. It's to the point when I take a test I think I see a line and it go away. IM GOING CRAZY! this pregnancy will be a high risk pregnancy. I just want a healthy baby but having sex every other day and negative test is hurting me 😭😭