Venting/Need advice

I ABSOLUTELY FUCKING HATE HER SO MUCH!!!!! I HATE HER FOR WHAT SHE DID TO ME!! I HATE THAT SHE TOOK SOMETHING THAT I WANTED TO WAIT TILL MARRIAGE TO KNOW WHAT WANTING TO HAVE SEX WITH MY FUTURE HUSBAND FELT LIKE but I can't anymore because of her.... I crave/want sex I guess I'm not quite sure what it is so much now.. I wanted to belive it was because I had a crush/ was in love with him I wanted to blame it on the sex dreams about him but I can't it's because of her..😠😔😢😭