NYE. Help 😭😿

Last night I got super drunk and needless to say, I don't remember alot of the night. I was out with my boyfriend and his friends we were all drinking and having a good time. I guess I had too much to drink because I just can't remember a big part of the night. Anyway, my boyfriend told me this morning that I was pushing him away and telling him to leave me alone and then I would go ask one of his friends to hold me. I'm not attracted to any of his friends and I just don't know why I would have done that.. apparently we were just arguing the whole night 😔 now I feel like shit and like whore. Any ideas of why I would have done that? I mean I was upset because my bf wasn't all over me like he usually was.. could that really be why? Help.