I know I definitely did the right thing leaving my husband  , flying to the UK to be with my family etc. I just keep letting my mind wonder at all these what ifs and it upsets me how I won't be the family I wanted to be and somehow I can't shift the feeling. It is really getting me down and sometimes angers me how such a stupid man , who I still stupidly love , didn't see how good I was to him and took me for granted and is happily moving on already while I'm carrying his child.

How do I let go?