I'd love to hear about anything you've done or are doing to enjoy your pregnancy, instead of always worrying something is wrong. I'm currently only 5 weeks, but I've known for a week and a half and have been super anxious. I want to be excited!

I'll give you some of my backstory:

I got off the pill a while ago, and the next month I got a bfp! I was surprised, but really excited. I tested again a few days later and the line got lighter. And lighter. And lighter again. Chemical pregnancy.

Months went by, no bfp and my cycles were getting longer and longer and longer.

I asked my OBGYN to order some tests for me and I was diagnosed with PCOS. I live a healthy lifestyle and am pretty fit, but my ovaries are wrecked. Was referred to an RE.

I was ordered some Clomid, but had to wait until my cycle ended, which took another two months.

Started Clomid, 19 days later I had one mature follicle. Timed up my bd'ing, and at 10 dpo... A bfp!

Ran to get a blood test. HCG = 29. Four days later, HCG = 354. I get another test done tomorrow, and if the HCG is doing what it is supposed to I graduate to an ultrasound in 2-3 weeks to detect the heartbeat. And then I can proceed like a normal human back at the OBGYN.

My symptoms are scarce. My boobs have started to hurt, but it comes and goes... And every time it goes, I get nervous. I don't want another chemical pregnancy!

And then sometimes I get a backache and cramps. A bit of CM. And the boobs hurt less... And then the internet includes these in the list of early miscarriage symptoms. And I pee on another stick. I've been peeing on sticks daily for two weeks, just to make sure the line was still there.

I was hoping to be blissfully sick and excited, but I'm not. I'm worried because of the first chemical, and all this reading about miscarriage. I need to get my mind off of it. How do you keep your mind positive, or at least quiet? I'm trying to give myself milestones ("after the heartbeat, you can calm down!"), devotionals ('Waiting in Wonder,' if you're interested), prayer, and told a friend who has a 4 month old so I'm not alone while I wait to tell everyone else. Any other ideas? This isn't me! I swear I'm a carefree person!