my heart is broken

Britney
Af was due 12/24 and never showed. Took a hpt on 12/26 and got what I thought was a vvvfl. I went and had blood work the same day and that came back negative 😩 so here I am, over a week later, still no af and devastated. 
I could really use some words of encouragement because I feel like it just isn't gonna happen 😔
Here is the hpt I took on the 26th. Maybe it was just me thinking it was there 
*******UPDATE:
Took another hpt on 1/4 and still a bfn 😩