Trigger Warning: Help

So I was recovering from self harm and I relapsed a few days ago. I feel really awful about it but worse about myself. I really hate a lot of things about myself especially my body and I don't know if I can ever learn to live my scars and myself. I have bipolar 2 and have been to therapy before but it just didn't really help and I stopped being able to afford it on my own. I just want to feel like how I feel matters and that I have some value in life. Advice? Help? Even just a good vibe would help but please no hate I have more than enough on my own. 😔