Another disappointing start to the new year

Susie
Hello and happy new year everyone.
I'm 42 and have been trying for over a year. 
Absolutely nothing so far and I got a period yesterday, only day 17.
My fiancé is just about useless - as usual, he couldn't even say anything when I told him. But I am too old and desperate to have a child, to start again.
It's back to work tomorrow and I just do not know what to do with myself tonight, apart from cry.
Good luck all.
X