first miscarriage after trying for ten year 😥

So I found out I was pregnant Christmas eve then a week later on New Year's eve started bleeding got sent home from hospital with no explanation then got admitted on the Tuesday lots of blood tests hcg level was at 334 two days later went down but not by much was still 290 got booked in for a internal scan didn't find anything bleeding has stopped and they told me miscarriage or could be early eptopic have to go back in a week to get blood tests again when will this be over so I can try again! Heartbroken it took me ten year to fall pregnant just to get it take away a week later 😥