My story

Around the end of September, I was taking my physical for the Army. Everybody had went onto the next part of the physical, yet I'm still sitting in the waiting area. After getting my folder back, I looked to see if it had a reason as to why I was still sitting in the same area. Call me crazy, but I didn't know what HCG was.. My folder said positive for HCG. At MEPS we aren't allowed to have our phones so I wasn't able to look it up. A few minutes later, the dr called me back & asked when was the last time I had a period. My period has always been irregular but I remember having one the month previous. I cried my heart out because I felt like my world was over. The first person I told was my sister, I was scared to tell my boyfriend because he too was in the Army. My second thought was how am I going to raise a baby alone while my child's father is in another country. Well anyway, after getting excited, my happiness was short lived. A week after I found out, I started having very bad thigh pains. A week after, I received yet another period. I immediately contacted my dr and he told me it was regular to have one last period. Just to be sure, I went to the emergency room and the dr's there told me the same thing. A week after the first emergency room visit, I was still bleeding & out of nowhere I started having very bad stomach pains. I was able to drive myself to the ER. The dr told me that it wasn't a miscarriage yet but it was in the process of happening. A couple days later, all the bleeding stopped along with all the pregnancy symptoms. It was the most heartbreaking things ever. To get used to the fact that you should feel those little kicks, have someone that'll love you forever with a doubt to be taken away without any legitimate reason why is the most hardest thing to deal with. I've never cried so hard... In November, it will be 2 years and I still get sad seeing little kids or mothers having their newborns. I always ask myself if there was something I did wrong or if there was anything I could've did to prevent it. I think I've been so prone to becoming pregnant again, I start to have symptoms just at the thought of it. I take at least 2 pregnancy tests every 2 months...