my story
Let's begin at the beginning. So since 2004 me and my high school boy friend broke up. Ever since then we would hook up here and there whenever we were single (or I thought we were both single). Well we started hooking up last April. He told me he and his girlfriend broke up. I ended up pregnant in July and informed him. He admitted that he was still with his girlfriend this whole time.
Well since that time we continued to hook up. I know that was wrong but I was so lonely. Well in November we got in a fight and I messaged his girlfriend through Facebook and told her I was pregnant. Since we weren't friends on Facebook you don't know how long it would take for her to get the message. Well the last time we hooked up was on New Year's eve. Well it turned out she just got the message last weekend and informed me they just got married on 11/28 and that he has been trying to get her pregnant and that she might be. He is pissed at me for telling her and I feel bad for telling her. I should not have done that while I was upset. He doesn't want anything to do with me or our child. I just can't believe he would be this way I have known him since I was 15. Let's just say it's been 21 years and feel like a total idiot. It just hurts so much.
I feel so alone, Don't get me wrong my family is supportive. I have a good career and a house. I'm just not good at showing my emotions to people. Probably why I am posting it here. I put a good show on when I am out in public but when I get home All I do is cry. I've already screwed up my son will not have a father. I have no idea what I am doing. I never thought I was going to have kids and if I did I didn't think it was going to be like this. Thanks for listening.
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