paranoid

I had my implant out in late October as my partner and I wanted to try for our first child together. I have a 3 year old son from another relationship and my partner loves him like his own. Before my son I had a miscarriage at about 5 weeks which I'm aware is quite normal. So trying for a baby is a big deal, anyway, I assumed liked many others it would take a fair amount of time to conceive this time but I found out recently that we are about 8 weeks pregnant. Which of course we are absolutely over the moon with. I just find myself constantly paranoid that I'm going to miscarry or I'll go to my first scan and find there's no heartbeat which would destroy me. I'm really struggling to focus on being excited with these niggling thoughts all the time. I have my booking appointment on the 21st so hopefully I can feel a bit more at ease after that. Sorry for the long rambling post. I guess it just helps to get things off your chest.