so stressed out 😔

Today I would of been 7 weeks. I was rushed to the ER Sunday after I had blood clots. the ER doctor didn't give me much answers to know for sure if I miscarried or if I'm still having a healthy baby. So I went home with the unknown. After the ER I showered and continued to bleed as I was about to get out the shower a LARGE bloody mass came out. It was a traumatic moment to think that I had my baby in my hands. I'm pretty sure it was a miscarriage. And now today is the day I go back for a blood test to find out the status of my pregnancy. Hoping for the best but I'm thinking the worst. I never got to my first prenatal appointment. I never got to see my baby or hear it's heartbeat.