I'm not even sure where to post this, I'm so heartbroken.. Today I went to the doctor for just a regular check up. I was supposed to be 25 weeks but my ultrasound last week showed him at 22 weeks so I should have been 23 weeks this week.. Well, they couldn't find his heartbeat. So now my boyfriend and I have to decide what to do. We're only 19, this is the most heartbreaking thing I've ever been through. I wouldn't wish this upon my worst enemy. We love this baby boy soooo much, it hasn't really hit me yet that I'll never get to bring him home or make memories with him. I'm just so numb to all my emotions I feel like shit because my boyfriend is sitting here crying and I'm just numb.. My heart hurts so bad. I just wish I could have been a better mommy so he could have lived. I wish it was me instead of him. My beautiful baby will never get the chance to be amazing. Now I have to deliver a dead baby, that's all I can think about. I just want to die myself, but I know that's not the answer. I just never thought this would happen to me 😢 Rest In Peace mommy's beautiful baby boy, I love you sooo much. No one will ever replace him. I feel so bad because all I can think about is trying for another baby to fill this emptiness in my heart. I'm too young to be going through this. I just want to be happy. Please keep my family in your thoughts while we go through this terrible time. 😕 I love you so much Giovanni Antonio Brown, it's breaking my heart that I'll be able to hold him way too soon but I'll never feel his warmth 💔 I just want to ball up and die right now.