Want to cry!

Ive been having all these pregnancy symptoms and I've been testing but always get a negative, then yesterday I started spotting so I got excited thinking it was implantation bleeding and thought I just had my cycle schedule wrong because I'm always irregular. The very light bleeding continued today but then this evening it got a little heavier so now I think it's just AF. I'm so disappointed I just want to curl up and cry!! I really thought with all the symptoms I had that I was pregnant. I just don't understand because my body never acts like this. I've never gotten symptoms like this before and never have spotting. It's like my body has just gone crazy!!! Oh well, I guess we'll just have to try next month, but I don't even want to go through this again. With my first child the only symptom I had was some nausea and I was 4 weeks late before I ever tested because my period was always "off" and I didn't even think about it. Ok, I'll stop complaining now.