Toxic relationship

I'm 2 weeks pp and im feeling very discouraged and disappointed in my life. Ive been in a stressful unhappy relationship for almost 2 years now. I should have left when i had the chance but i was dumb and never did. I ended up getting pregnant and after that i felt like i could never leave. pregnancy was easy for me physically but emotionally it was terrible. I kept wishing i had got an abortion but i was terrified of doing that and i also grew up in a christian household. I had qmy baby almost 2 weeks ago and everything was good while we were in the hospital. After getting home things have just gotten worse and worse. We argue everyday over everything and absolutely nothing. The other day he got mad at me because he said i cut the potatoes for the hashbrowns too big. He always has something to say and im always doing something wrong. He is harsh and controlling. He is not making this easy for me at all. I already feel very emotional and being around him just stresses me out. I talked to him and told him something has to change but im sure without something drastic happening nothing will change. Now our son is in the picture. I want to leave him but i dont really have anywhere to go. I also get depressed when i think about raising a baby alone. I feel like ill never be able to provide for him and give him a good childhood. I cant even afford to live on my own. I feel like ive completely fucked my life up by having his baby and i dont know what to do. Im sure leaving him would be best for me but for some reason it's really hard for me to do that even though i dont even love him anymore. 😔