Ultrasounds

So i'm 16 weeks and 2 days, had my first ultrasound at 7 weeks . Had another one due to bleeding (stomach and vaginal) at 9 weeks. I feel almost heart broken that I haven't been able to see an actual baby figure yet, makes me feel like none of this is real :/. At my last doctors appointment she finally let me hear the heart beat and I started panicking because it took her a while to find it, it was at 158 :) I just wish I could see my baby :( is it normal to feel like this ? :/