probably just me being stupid

Wasabi
So idk I'm the type to do things on my own and not ask for help but I live with my mom and she is always offering to hold my baby and feed her and stuff while I get some sleep but I feel so bad. I don't want to rely on her because she will hold it over my head as nice as she's trying to be. And then she'll be holding her while I'm just chillin and maybe going on my phone I feel a bad mom when I'm just on my phone and she's taking care of her. And even when I sleep. And when she cries and I've been kind of half asleep I take awhile to wake up and she just rushes to her and grabs her and tells me to relax but again I just feel bad and like a bad mom. :/ also when I have to go to the hospital or when my sister wants to go eat I leave her with my mom and I feel bad for that too! I know I sound stupid but I'm a ftm and I just feel weird when other people take care of her. Am I a bad mom? Should I just relax and let her help? Ugh