still feeling the same!

 Our first cycle failed in December Christmas Day and I can't shove how I'm feeling! I'm constantly upset and feeling misarable I just wanna have a baby it's hurting more and more I feel like we are so far away from getting our dream I'm starting to distance my fiancé I know it's not his fault but everything is bugging me I feel like I'm not gonna get out of this mood does anyone know anything I can try to give me hope?