getting very discouraged

6,5, and 4 days before period and negative πŸ˜“πŸ˜“πŸ˜“πŸ˜­πŸ˜­πŸ˜­
I'm crying y'all. My husband says "it's still early, you know that" but I don't think we are ever going to get pregnant. I almost want to go on birth control so I'm not disappointed every single month. This hurts. Very badly.Β 
We have no kids together yet but are blended with his 4 and my 2
I get so frustrated that his first wife and he had 4 children and she is a drug addict who doesn't care for them and I just want to have 1 with him. Why..........