So sad

I'm feeling so low right now, two miscarriages and I'm so down to the point of God knows what....Only thing stopping me is I love my husband and fear, I guess the fear is a good thing - I've to wait another 6 months until I see my NHS professional CBT Counsellor and I don't want to add distress to my friends or family :( I need to stop feeling like this I just don't know how xx