help I need some advice

How can I tell if my boyfriend wants to break up? I love him so much but I think he has had enough of me but we have been so strong lately and it's been the most amazing 9 months for me and I'm scared he doesn't love me anymore.... if I bring it up it turns into an argument and I end up being the bad guy in EVERY SCENARIO.... please help me I can't go on anymore it has me stressing so bad guyssss 😣😣😣😢😢😞💔